And for this week’s practice, I intend to do nothing. That’s right! I’m doing not a god dang thing. Why, you may ask?
I’m doing nothin because it’s time to. All these new practices have brought me to a place where a bit of rest and reflection is needed. I want to breathe deeply to see what sticks and what doesn’t.
I’m also curious to see what happens when I actually just focus on being where I am at. I’m always doing eleventeen rituals, thirty five spells along with cleansing and protecting everything. Rather than push into something else I want to see what happens if I just breathe.
I’m curious <3
Last week’s practice went well and horribly at the same time. Additional meditation time did not happen. However, I did sit at my ancestral altar more; which was very very helpful. My ears and heart is full <3
Whatever comes up this week– may it bless you <3
In this whole Mama gig I thought I was alone. And then for a minute, I was alone. I mean, I wasn’t totally alone. There just was a slight decrease in presence and support.
Now that things are back to normal, I can see how supported I was and am. The boys support me by helping around the house and not making crazy messes. My partner supports me by showing up. Life supports me by throwing blessings and joy my way when I least expect it.
This week, I’m expressing gratitude for the many ways in which I’m supported. I’m expecting a deeper sense of gratitude for the boys <3. Let’s see what comes up <3
Well, see what had happened was… a lot of shit.. No really, a lot of shit happened. It got a little crazy and I stopped connecting. I stopped connecting because I forgot to breathe. I had no space to breathe. It was painful. It still is a little painful.
Oddly enough, the few moments when I did have space breathe, I was filled with such loving wisdom. It was amazing.
What I’ve learned this summer, is that it’s important to breathe. It’s important to relax. When I breathe and relax I can hear. When I can hear, I can make honest decisions that work for me and my family.
I’ll pick up the reconnection series in a bit. But for now, I’m going to breathe and receive all the wisdom Nature has to offer me today <3
Be good to yourself
Why again? Because last week kicked my ass. Honestly, the past few weeks have kicked my ass.
I would love to say my essence bubbled up easily and I was able to focus on it every morning until it oozed out my pores. What actually happed is that the trees gave me some qualities I had fun playing with in the shower. The rest of the day usually went to shit from there.
This week I’m going to try again. It feels good to know who I am at the core of my being. I need to focus on it more by making decisions that better align with and support it. I am learning that intention and energy is beautiful, but action is necessary. Feelings are nice, but I’d like concrete experiences to go along with all my feelings.
I’m not quite out the woods with my drama, but I am exploring concrete actions that align with my essential self (core frequency). Things are starting to ease up and feel better. Let’s see what unfolds from here.
This week, my challenge is to become more rooted into my essential self….um whatever that is. The trees around me describe it as their treeness. That description makes sense and confuses me at the same time. I’m human. There’s all these things I ascribe to who I am. When I think of Jeannette Lancien, I think sleepy Mother who laughs and cooks a great deal. I think of a loving wife and good friend. There are millions of things I think about until I am gently reminded that those are things I do. They are not who I am. If all those things were to change, I’d still be me–that is my essential self. It’s not what I do. It’s who I be.
I asked how do I root into the essence of who I am? I am told to breathe, be still and smile. Who I am will bubble up to the surface. I must admit that answer sounds much more like my Father than the trees, but let’s see what happens <3.
This week my challenge is to slow down and root/ground into my essential self. Before getting out of bed and before preparing meals, I’ll take a couple of deep breathes into my belly and see what bubbles up. When I can feel myself, I will move from there
Let’s see what comes up <3
Oh yeah about last weeks eating challenge. It wasn’t too terrible, but it wasn’t great either. I have idyllic memories of being twenty something and vegan in the South of France. My memories and the present moment are two different things. Vegan bullshit is now abundant in France. I’m also not just cooking for myself and my husband (who eats just about anything with gratitude) anymore. Sadly, my kids are not into eating only veggies and don’t eat unless I’m eating what they are eating with them. So… eating better..meh. I was able to cut out milk products and limit the gluten. I’m hearing more; which was the goal. I’m overall satisfied but there is always more work to do.
Let’s see how next week goes!
Lot’s has happened since the last time I posted anything. Let’s see:
- Gave birth to a healthy baby boy
- I finally found some mouse poop
- A headless mouse appeared in the garden
- We moved back to France.
It feels odd, yet good, to be here. The boys are thriving, my husband is happy and we are supported as a family. Minor adjustments aside, things are good and magical.
My French intuitive self functions a bit differently than my American intuitive self. I’m all green here—which is a change for me. I receive advice from trees. Flowers take care of me while teaching me how to take care of them. Crows openly laugh at me and rodents remind me that they are around for support if I need it.
Feeling interconnected with nature is different than connecting with ancestors, ghosts, angels, or anything else. I feel loving wisdom around me that does not require work to access. I really have no need to suffer because there is continual access to a blissful green space that transmutes my pain and transcends my understanding. I find myself in awe by the love, beauty and wisdom that surrounds me every day.
As life continues to unfold in amazing ways, my gifts are changing. Let’s see what happens next.
I’ll be honest. This week really kicked my ass. Grounding into Mother Earth through my feet wasn’t too hard. At least once a day, I’d check in with my feet. Then, I’d inhale down into Mother Earth and exhale back into my feet. This practice was great for bringing me back to the present moment and connecting me to my body.
Now that I’m in my body, I’m challenged by a few things:
- I really need to relax. The more I continued to breathe into Mother Earth, the more I realized how tightly wound I am. I love the idea of going to relax somewhere, but that ain’t happening. Returning to a more vigorous yoga practice and laying off the caffeine is a good start.
- I need to be more receptive. Even my breath is a bit aggressive. It leads me back to the fact that I really need to calm down.
- It’s time to move back to France. I felt in my bones that something big was coming. It no longer feels right here. I didn’t expect France to call us in. France is wonderful, but I love living here. I don’t want to go. However, I know it’s for the best.
Since deciding to move back to France, my eating has gotten a little out of control. I am eating my resistance. I’d rather not gain all my postpartum weight back. Next week I will focus on a grounding and calming yoga practice while challenging myself to connect to Mother Earth through mindful eating. Once a day, I’ll check in with how I am feeling before I decide what to eat. Then, I choose what to eat based on my emotions. I’ll match my moods to healthy foods. It’ll be entertaining <3
Until next week, Take Precious Care!
For this week’s challenge, I am going to focus on something simple: yard work.
I really love yard work. It’s a great way to connect with Mother Earth. There is nothing more exciting than offering plants all they need to flourish in harmony. Although yard work can be challenging with a toddler, I’ve had quite a few magic moments. The most important thing seems to be preparation. When I calm, focused and have plan things go well.
So, with the intention of reconnecting to Mother Earth, I will mindfully prepare the yard for fall. I will trim the bushes, herbs and the tree according to their desires and not my own. I will be patient in planting the new snapdragons and foxgloves, so that they can find the best spot in the yard. And I will be careful in how I include the children in this work.
Last week I didn’t get to spend too much time in nature 🙁 But since school is back in, I’m sure I can get some yard work done 😀
Hope all is being good to you
Last Saturday night I awoke to what sounded like scratching in the bedroom wall. I immediately woke my husband. He trudged outside and scared whatever it was away. However, the next night it came back. The noise was louder this time. We knocked on the walls and contemplated what to do. My husband went back to sleep while I staid up to freak out. For me, rodents evoke fear frustration and guilt whenever they show up. I always feel like they are coming to claim me as one of their own.
I sheepishly admitted to a friend that I am secretly a rodent. I’m intuitive, skittish, habitual and fertile like mouse. I am playful and magical like chipmunk. I’m sociable, determined and wise like rat. I feel guilt when rodents arrive to chew on walls outside the house because I rarely embrace these parts of myself.
Since I was afraid of living with mice, rats or whatever was chewing on the side of the house, I did what I normally do. I asked for assistance for creating ritual, called pest control and then got some flower essences 🙂
Over the past few days some things have become clear:
- I am at my best in ritual to clear stuff up. My intuition has sharpened.
- Mother Earth will clearly guide you. Squirrels, stink bugs, chipmunks, hummingbirds, and well placed words have all brought me comfort and clarity this week.
- Rodents are kinda awesome. I am a fan. They still can’t come in the house, though.
And as I continue in ritual, I’m noticing that I dig a combination of Conjure and Green Wicca. Conjure is in my bones. It’s my default. I love it. It scares me though. Conjure gives me access to power I’d rather not have. I ain’t about cursing, hexing and giving folk STIs. That’s some heavy karma. I also get angry reading conjure books because I hear dead black folk laughing at the instructions given in books. Some of the sources lied and continue to giggle about it. I also get angry seeing white faces as the representatives of what is essentially a Black and Native American art. All that being said, conjure will keep your ass safe and ensure you have all you need. It’s conjure that helped me hot foot whatever was eating at the walls. Wicca did not help me with that.
I like the idea of Green/Hedge Wicca laced with Conjure. Sometimes asses need to be kicked. Conjure is good at that. At the end of the day, I think I just need to do what Mother Earth tells me. I don’t need a label.
I hope all is well with you. Until the next time, take precious care
Over the past few weeks we’ve had quite a few adventures with water. It all began with the air conditioning going out. Which doesn’t sound like it’s related to water, but the big of chunk of ice that formed in one of the pipes begged to differ. Next, I spilled a beverage on my Mac. Finally, our water filtration system decided to get in on the action and start overflowing.
At first I thought about the water deity I had been petitioning. Then, I realized that I hadn’t been the best with my emotions lately. Things had been backing up and hardening into resentment. I had feelings that needed to flow; to be expressed.
I would love to say that I am all expressed out and that things have stopped flooding. That wouldn’t be fully honest though. :). However, I have been inspired to be more vulnerable in my communication. I am learning to ask for what I need rather than sit in resentment. I’m also learning to talk about how I’m really feeling instead of sugar coating everything. The result has been a stronger, closer connection with my husband and more clarity in my friendships.
Hopefully I can keep up with the flow of honoring my emotions in the present moment.
Until next time, take precious care.