For the past week, I’ve continued to focus on hearing space. In short, I’ve been doing the best I can to find the peace within the chaos. This week has been challenging, but here’s what I’ve gleaned:
1. Voices have increased and identified themselves as elements and various trees I’ve met. I’m quite entertained because, I’m starting to physically hear what usually comes to me as knowing.
2. The void is unity. Everything comes from it and returns to it. All that ever was and ever will be resides in that space.
3. The more I listen to what’s seemingly outside of me, the more I can actually hear myself. It’s often been a challenge for me to hear myself clearly. I often hear everything else but me.
4. The neighborhood cat has started talking to me. I don’t understand it fully yet, but we’ll see. Stranger things have happened to me than talking cats.
This week I’d like play more in the void and see what comes up and out. I am curious to better understand the link between the void and this realm. I have a feeling the answer is somewhere in my body. We’ll see what happens.
Seeking the silence mentioned in the previous post has been amazing. The more I seek it, the more I hear it. Here is what I’ve noticed over the past few days:
The more I seek that space the more things re-arrange themselves for me to connect with it. Children stop talking. Husbands peacefully leave the apartment. Traffic slows down. It’s wild.
This space sounds different with my left ear than with my right. The left ear sounds/feel likes a portal to some cosmic void. I can feel things stirring, pressing their way into reality. When I focus enough sound becomes a physical sensation. This is new for me. I’m used to voices, impressions, vision and knowing– not physical feeling. My right ear hears the silence of the green–not the cosmic void. Normally I don’t hear things that way. My right ear chills on my head. My left ear does the spiritual lifting.
My challenge for the week: Keep listening! Keep noticing! I’m curious to see if I can find the space where the cosmic void and the Green connect <3
Until next time, Take precious care
Earlier this week, a new Voice popped up. I hear lots of things. Trees, cats, hidden folk, plants… But this voice was new and said the most interesting thing.
The voice told me that there is a way to keep my ears and heart open even when life gets demanding. It said I needed to hear the silence behind the chaos of life. This silence is the organizing principle of life. It is the void from which we all come. If I root myself in that silence I’ll find stability by understanding how things work and being able to better discern what’s coming.
The voice also suggested enjoying the peace between chaotic events. If I seek the peace between events, I will be more rested. Although my energy will be ebb and flow, I will be more harmonious with the land I live on and the flow of my life.
The interesting thing is, that ever since that voice spoke I can hear the silence behind everything. It’s more distinguishable when everyone is sleeping or I’m not agitated. However, I’m noticing that silence is always there– even in the midst of chaos.
I also love the idea of enjoying peace when it comes. I have a habit of being on all the time. Part of it is being a mother to two young boys, but another part is just me. I need to better discern when I can turn off and turn off.
I have a feeling this is a reconnection challenge and that I should really focus on this for the next week. But, we are on the last week of holidays in France <3 I’m going to be a wee lazy and come back to this next week <3
Until next time, take precious care
Well, see what had happened was… a lot of shit.. No really, a lot of shit happened. It got a little crazy and I stopped connecting. I stopped connecting because I forgot to breathe. I had no space to breathe. It was painful. It still is a little painful.
Oddly enough, the few moments when I did have space breathe, I was filled with such loving wisdom. It was amazing.
What I’ve learned this summer, is that it’s important to breathe. It’s important to relax. When I breathe and relax I can hear. When I can hear, I can make honest decisions that work for me and my family.
I’ll pick up the reconnection series in a bit. But for now, I’m going to breathe and receive all the wisdom Nature has to offer me today <3
Be good to yourself
My challenge this week is to better discern when I’m not moving from my essential self. Any emotion outside of joy or love is an indicator that I am not rooted into my essential self. So, when I do have feelings like anger, frustration, or fatigue, my challenge is to receive their wisdom and use said wisdom to return to my essential self. Or so the trees say 🙂 It feels important to grant myself grace and patience through out this process. However I am reminded that the more I practice, the easier it will be.
In order to support myself, I’ve been asked to drink more water. Water will show me discernment by modeling what it’s like to never lose my essential self, no matter what gets thrown into or at me. By remaining in my essential self, I’ll never be confused about who I am.
When I initially channeled this post it didn’t seem possible. This week it actually feels like a fun challenge. Now that I feel more strongly rooted into the core of myself; I look forward to better learning from my feelings and emotions.
Let’s see what comes up <3
Why again? Because last week kicked my ass. Honestly, the past few weeks have kicked my ass.
I would love to say my essence bubbled up easily and I was able to focus on it every morning until it oozed out my pores. What actually happed is that the trees gave me some qualities I had fun playing with in the shower. The rest of the day usually went to shit from there.
This week I’m going to try again. It feels good to know who I am at the core of my being. I need to focus on it more by making decisions that better align with and support it. I am learning that intention and energy is beautiful, but action is necessary. Feelings are nice, but I’d like concrete experiences to go along with all my feelings.
I’m not quite out the woods with my drama, but I am exploring concrete actions that align with my essential self (core frequency). Things are starting to ease up and feel better. Let’s see what unfolds from here.
So, here I am in the lovely St. Maur des fosses reconnecting with Nature.
Challenge 1: Eat better.
Since moving, my diet has been crap. I mean, my American diet was crap. Sadly, I’ve not shown too much improvement since arriving here 🙂
Here are my dietary goals for the week:
- Cut out the whiskey. I love whiskey. It makes me feel good, but if I’m hitting it every night I need to honor whatever I’m stifling rather than continuing to drink every night. It’s not good for me. It’s tasty though 😉
- Cut out the cheese. It feels so cruel to be in France and not indulge in cheese, but it’s messing me up.
For bonus points, I’ll cut my bread in take back to 1 serving a day.
Why am I messing with my diet?
I’m eating better because too much cheese fucks me up; all the way up. Not to mention, my intuition is much sharper when my diet is mainly fruits, veggies, rice and eggs. If I can’t hear Nature, I cannot build a harmonious connection with Her.
We’ll see how this comes together and what the trees have to say next week <3
Now, that we’re kinda settled, it’s time to reconnect with French Mother Nature <3. Feel free to follow me as I spend the next couple of weeks building a harmonious relationship with Local Green.
Wait, what does a harmonious relationship with the Green mean?
When I talk about The Green, I speak of the entirety of Nature that surrounds includes me: the lovely trees that whisper advice while I play with the boys, the beautiful flowers that giggle at me, the Marne (the local river) who reminds me to keep flowing. I’m also including the helpful hidden folk who take care of our living space and remind me to pick up trash. I’m also speaking of the local kitty committee, the birds and many other beings surrounding us.
Why seek a harmonious relationship with the green?
I feel disconnected from it. Honestly, I don’t think I can function without drawing closer to Nature. It soothes me and brings balance that I can’t seem to find any other way. Plus, Nature seems to have things pretty much figured out.
What do I expect this relationship to look like?
Unity, harmony and lots of shit talking. But seriously, I want to make choices that support Nature and myself in thriving. I’ve felt a space in the green where everything is in harmony. I want to expand that space so humanity knows it has a choice and that it can recognize itself as part of a larger intelligent being.
Okay, so how do you start?
Haha! Wherever the trees tell me to <3
See you next week!