Why again? Because last week kicked my ass. Honestly, the past few weeks have kicked my ass.
I would love to say my essence bubbled up easily and I was able to focus on it every morning until it oozed out my pores. What actually happed is that the trees gave me some qualities I had fun playing with in the shower. The rest of the day usually went to shit from there.
This week I’m going to try again. It feels good to know who I am at the core of my being. I need to focus on it more by making decisions that better align with and support it. I am learning that intention and energy is beautiful, but action is necessary. Feelings are nice, but I’d like concrete experiences to go along with all my feelings.
I’m not quite out the woods with my drama, but I am exploring concrete actions that align with my essential self (core frequency). Things are starting to ease up and feel better. Let’s see what unfolds from here.
This week, my challenge is to become more rooted into my essential self….um whatever that is. The trees around me describe it as their treeness. That description makes sense and confuses me at the same time. I’m human. There’s all these things I ascribe to who I am. When I think of Jeannette Lancien, I think sleepy Mother who laughs and cooks a great deal. I think of a loving wife and good friend. There are millions of things I think about until I am gently reminded that those are things I do. They are not who I am. If all those things were to change, I’d still be me–that is my essential self. It’s not what I do. It’s who I be.
I asked how do I root into the essence of who I am? I am told to breathe, be still and smile. Who I am will bubble up to the surface. I must admit that answer sounds much more like my Father than the trees, but let’s see what happens <3.
This week my challenge is to slow down and root/ground into my essential self. Before getting out of bed and before preparing meals, I’ll take a couple of deep breathes into my belly and see what bubbles up. When I can feel myself, I will move from there
Let’s see what comes up <3
Oh yeah about last weeks eating challenge. It wasn’t too terrible, but it wasn’t great either. I have idyllic memories of being twenty something and vegan in the South of France. My memories and the present moment are two different things. Vegan bullshit is now abundant in France. I’m also not just cooking for myself and my husband (who eats just about anything with gratitude) anymore. Sadly, my kids are not into eating only veggies and don’t eat unless I’m eating what they are eating with them. So… eating better..meh. I was able to cut out milk products and limit the gluten. I’m hearing more; which was the goal. I’m overall satisfied but there is always more work to do.
Let’s see how next week goes!
So, here I am in the lovely St. Maur des fosses reconnecting with Nature.
Challenge 1: Eat better.
Since moving, my diet has been crap. I mean, my American diet was crap. Sadly, I’ve not shown too much improvement since arriving here 🙂
Here are my dietary goals for the week:
- Cut out the whiskey. I love whiskey. It makes me feel good, but if I’m hitting it every night I need to honor whatever I’m stifling rather than continuing to drink every night. It’s not good for me. It’s tasty though 😉
- Cut out the cheese. It feels so cruel to be in France and not indulge in cheese, but it’s messing me up.
For bonus points, I’ll cut my bread in take back to 1 serving a day.
Why am I messing with my diet?
I’m eating better because too much cheese fucks me up; all the way up. Not to mention, my intuition is much sharper when my diet is mainly fruits, veggies, rice and eggs. If I can’t hear Nature, I cannot build a harmonious connection with Her.
We’ll see how this comes together and what the trees have to say next week <3
Now, that we’re kinda settled, it’s time to reconnect with French Mother Nature <3. Feel free to follow me as I spend the next couple of weeks building a harmonious relationship with Local Green.
Wait, what does a harmonious relationship with the Green mean?
When I talk about The Green, I speak of the entirety of Nature that surrounds includes me: the lovely trees that whisper advice while I play with the boys, the beautiful flowers that giggle at me, the Marne (the local river) who reminds me to keep flowing. I’m also including the helpful hidden folk who take care of our living space and remind me to pick up trash. I’m also speaking of the local kitty committee, the birds and many other beings surrounding us.
Why seek a harmonious relationship with the green?
I feel disconnected from it. Honestly, I don’t think I can function without drawing closer to Nature. It soothes me and brings balance that I can’t seem to find any other way. Plus, Nature seems to have things pretty much figured out.
What do I expect this relationship to look like?
Unity, harmony and lots of shit talking. But seriously, I want to make choices that support Nature and myself in thriving. I’ve felt a space in the green where everything is in harmony. I want to expand that space so humanity knows it has a choice and that it can recognize itself as part of a larger intelligent being.
Okay, so how do you start?
Haha! Wherever the trees tell me to <3
See you next week!
Or rather, manifestation through attraction; being instead of doing.
Lately, I’ve been having with the the Magic of Flowers oracle deck. It’s amazing. I usually pull a card in the morning and within the next day or so, the flower featured on the card pops up around me <3
Hyacinth popped up this morning. She reminded me that creation through vibration is possible. Don’t work hard to do shit. Focus on being instead. Hyacinth then pointed me to Ochun who is the essence of the Divine reeling itself in to love itself. I am asked to be honest with myself; attract what I want by feeling as if it were already here. If I am honest about what I really want, holding the vibration of what I am creating should not be too challenging.
I love how the flowers work. They often remind me that my life could be more light, fluid and joyful. I don’t even have to work for it. I just need to be it.
Let’s see what unfolds next.
Lot’s has happened since the last time I posted anything. Let’s see:
- Gave birth to a healthy baby boy
- I finally found some mouse poop
- A headless mouse appeared in the garden
- We moved back to France.
It feels odd, yet good, to be here. The boys are thriving, my husband is happy and we are supported as a family. Minor adjustments aside, things are good and magical.
My French intuitive self functions a bit differently than my American intuitive self. I’m all green here—which is a change for me. I receive advice from trees. Flowers take care of me while teaching me how to take care of them. Crows openly laugh at me and rodents remind me that they are around for support if I need it.
Feeling interconnected with nature is different than connecting with ancestors, ghosts, angels, or anything else. I feel loving wisdom around me that does not require work to access. I really have no need to suffer because there is continual access to a blissful green space that transmutes my pain and transcends my understanding. I find myself in awe by the love, beauty and wisdom that surrounds me every day.
As life continues to unfold in amazing ways, my gifts are changing. Let’s see what happens next.
I’ll be honest. This week really kicked my ass. Grounding into Mother Earth through my feet wasn’t too hard. At least once a day, I’d check in with my feet. Then, I’d inhale down into Mother Earth and exhale back into my feet. This practice was great for bringing me back to the present moment and connecting me to my body.
Now that I’m in my body, I’m challenged by a few things:
- I really need to relax. The more I continued to breathe into Mother Earth, the more I realized how tightly wound I am. I love the idea of going to relax somewhere, but that ain’t happening. Returning to a more vigorous yoga practice and laying off the caffeine is a good start.
- I need to be more receptive. Even my breath is a bit aggressive. It leads me back to the fact that I really need to calm down.
- It’s time to move back to France. I felt in my bones that something big was coming. It no longer feels right here. I didn’t expect France to call us in. France is wonderful, but I love living here. I don’t want to go. However, I know it’s for the best.
Since deciding to move back to France, my eating has gotten a little out of control. I am eating my resistance. I’d rather not gain all my postpartum weight back. Next week I will focus on a grounding and calming yoga practice while challenging myself to connect to Mother Earth through mindful eating. Once a day, I’ll check in with how I am feeling before I decide what to eat. Then, I choose what to eat based on my emotions. I’ll match my moods to healthy foods. It’ll be entertaining <3
Until next week, Take Precious Care!
This challenge has been a bit harder than I expected. It’s easy to carry an intention for a day. The real challenge is staying laser focused on my intention through out the week when there is so much to do.
For this week, I’d like to do something more subtle. This week, I want to focus on my feet. My feet keep the rest of my body grounded and connected to Mother Earth. Finding little ways to care for them and ensure that I am engaging them properly feels like a gentle way to deepen my connection with Mother Earth. Not to mention, since my feet are always with me it’s easier to check in with them—even when I am with the boys.
So, for this week, my goal is to ensure that my weight is evenly spread between both feet and that I am engaging them mindfully. I want to continuously feel the flow of energy down into the Earth when I exhale and into my feet when I inhale. My intuition often spreads out around me like a cape, but I can feel things though my feet. It’d be nice to sharpen this skill a bit. I also intend to do something nice for my feet; like a foot bath.
Last week’s focus on yard work was helpful. I trimmed an overgrown tree in the yard and realized that I was very much like that tree. In my own eagerness to find light, I occasionally confuse and stunt my growth. The tree reminded me the importance of letting go what no longer works and being flexible.
I also ended up finding some plants knows for attracting fairies 🙂 Foxglove was just planted yesterday and I hope to get snapdragon in the ground this week.
I’m curious to see what comes up next.
Until next time.. take precious care.
I often ponder what the hell I am here to do. I’ve always felt like I needed to be of some type of service. My challenge in life has been figuring out what service really is. I’ve got all this magic, what is it really for? What am supposed to be doing with it?
When I was younger, my magic seemed to be for making my dreams come true. This worked until I realized that the dreams I was living weren’t really my dreams at all. They belonged to someone else. I wasn’t being honest with myself. So my magic became about self discovery and reclaiming myself. I practiced lots of yoga, did lots of energy work and played with herbs. All this resulted in finding a place where I could be of service to the community and to friends. I understood what I brought to the table and relished sharing it. Unfortunately, life shifted and I lost myself. It was hard to let go of who I was because I didn’t know who I was becoming…. until I became pregnant. Suddenly, my magic wasn’t just for me anymore. It was a gift to those share; which brings me to the present moment.
My magic, Mama magic, is love. It’s love that protects, nurtures, comforts, harmonizes, cares for those in need.
Until the next time, be good to you
For this week’s challenge, I am going to focus on something simple: yard work.
I really love yard work. It’s a great way to connect with Mother Earth. There is nothing more exciting than offering plants all they need to flourish in harmony. Although yard work can be challenging with a toddler, I’ve had quite a few magic moments. The most important thing seems to be preparation. When I calm, focused and have plan things go well.
So, with the intention of reconnecting to Mother Earth, I will mindfully prepare the yard for fall. I will trim the bushes, herbs and the tree according to their desires and not my own. I will be patient in planting the new snapdragons and foxgloves, so that they can find the best spot in the yard. And I will be careful in how I include the children in this work.
Last week I didn’t get to spend too much time in nature 🙁 But since school is back in, I’m sure I can get some yard work done 😀
Hope all is being good to you