In the past couple of weeks spider has come to visit a few times. It’s not been in one of her more cute and cuddly forms, either. What’s been showing up is quite large and gnarly. After a chat with a friend and a little bit of introspection, Spider reminds me of all the things that I’m not seeing.
Connecting with the silence between chaotic events is helpful. However, there are things that I know and see without doing all of that. When I am just open present and doing nothing, I see and know powerfully. It’s who I am. However Spider is reminding me of all I am choosing not to see. I’m choosing not to see because what I see hurts.
There’s a great deal of intuition I’ve shut off because I’m overwhelmed by pain that isn’t mine. Some of it belongs to people close to me. Some of it is in the air. I can’t deny that it hurts deeply to know that so many around me are in pain. I can’t touch, absorb, or transmute this pain because it’s not mine. This hurts because transforming pain into joy is what I do.
So, what do I do now? I have no damn idea! I just know that I need to do something different. Being shut down sucks!
Thankfully there is space today to connect more with Spider and My Ancestors. I’m sure someone has something interesting to say <3
Until next time.. take precious care!