There used to be a day and time, I could tell you almost anything. Past life, present life, your spouse, your cousin. Whatever it was, I could feel into it and tell you what you needed to know. Those days are gone.
Today, I’m happy to receive wisdom from the trees as I toddler chase. I’m not going to blame an intuitive loss on Motherhood. A good piece of it comes from being overwhelmed by all I sense around me. Running into untended anger, unhappy spirits and untended soul pieces that have been left to rot isn’t fun. It’s heavy. It hurts. However, it hurts more to not be able to hear and connect as I’d like.
This week, I’ll be focusing on honing my intuition. I’ll increase how long I meditate and spend more time at my ancestral altar. I’m curious to see what comes of these practices.
Last week’s exercise in gratitude was productive. The more thankful I am, the more I have to be thankful for. It’s amazing how positively life responds to just a little bit of gratitude.
Let’s see what the week brings <3
For the longest time, I swore Mother Nature was just bees, trees and flowers. Over time, I have come to experience her as much more. In this moment, I perceive Mother Nature as a direct manifestation of the cosmic void from which all life comes.
Mother Nature is a loving force that bring us all together in unity. She loves, she restores, she nurtures and she minds each one of us. Mother Nature does all she can to remove all obstacles to the void/God expressing through us.
Our individual expressions, in all their variety, is her goal because every expression is valid and needed. In essence returning to Mother Nature is a kin to returning to a larger self. That larger self is the void and the Mother Nature is really the harmonious expression of every being on this planet.
Despite what I may think or how I feel, every expression has it’s own place, space and purpose in creation. I’m working on the human practicalities of all this. When I see evil and feel other folk’s pain I don’t understand why it’s necessary for pain and evil exist. However, the more I witness people returning to Mother Nature by connecting to plants or animals I can see that all problems can be solved by reconnection. Pain and evil can bring you back to yourself. You returning to yourself and being yourself is Mother Nature.
If we all felt in harmony and unity with ourselves and each other— would there be a need for violence? If we all felt like who we are is needed, welcome, loved and cherished would so many of us be in pain? I have no idea.
However, I do believe, if we returned to Nature, each of us would find our place. Things would be better– or at least this is what I’ve seen and experienced.
For the past week, I’ve continued to focus on hearing space. In short, I’ve been doing the best I can to find the peace within the chaos. This week has been challenging, but here’s what I’ve gleaned:
1. Voices have increased and identified themselves as elements and various trees I’ve met. I’m quite entertained because, I’m starting to physically hear what usually comes to me as knowing.
2. The void is unity. Everything comes from it and returns to it. All that ever was and ever will be resides in that space.
3. The more I listen to what’s seemingly outside of me, the more I can actually hear myself. It’s often been a challenge for me to hear myself clearly. I often hear everything else but me.
4. The neighborhood cat has started talking to me. I don’t understand it fully yet, but we’ll see. Stranger things have happened to me than talking cats.
This week I’d like play more in the void and see what comes up and out. I am curious to better understand the link between the void and this realm. I have a feeling the answer is somewhere in my body. We’ll see what happens.
One day, A tree said that I needed to root and ground into my treeness. The idea made not a damn lick of sense at the time, but slowly grew on me. It’s a beautiful thing to stay rooted and grounded in the essence of who you are; allowing your essence to blossom forth as your expression. It’s an ideal way of being.
How to remain connected with and rooted into my essence never seemed clear to me. Upon expressing my confusion, I was told to drink more water. Water would teach me how to stay in myself no matter what surrounds me. I drank water. I better understood the tree’s advice but, I was still having trouble physically applying the wisdom I was given.
Then shit happened and I fell off the face of the Earth 🤷🏿♀️
Three months later I feel closer to my treeness. The missing part was my emotions as a com link.
Emotions help me stay in integrity. They speak from the core of my being; helping me understand what needs to stay, what needs to go, and what I need more of. I cannot practice treeness- staying rooted and grounded in the essence of who I am without honoring my own internal communication system.
Das it. I just need to hear myself and honor my emotions.
As I honor my own emotions, it feels easier to accept others without being responsible for their happiness. What other people do is about them and their emotions. It’s not about me. What matters is that I remain rooted and grounded in myself. Whatever pops up I can navigate by being honest with myself and having faith in Mother Nature.
Honoring my emotions seems to allow for my needs always being met. Since I can be honest with my about what I need I can more easily receive it. It may not come as I expect but my needs are and always have been met.
In the past couple of weeks spider has come to visit a few times. It’s not been in one of her more cute and cuddly forms, either. What’s been showing up is quite large and gnarly. After a chat with a friend and a little bit of introspection, Spider reminds me of all the things that I’m not seeing.
Connecting with the silence between chaotic events is helpful. However, there are things that I know and see without doing all of that. When I am just open present and doing nothing, I see and know powerfully. It’s who I am. However Spider is reminding me of all I am choosing not to see. I’m choosing not to see because what I see hurts.
There’s a great deal of intuition I’ve shut off because I’m overwhelmed by pain that isn’t mine. Some of it belongs to people close to me. Some of it is in the air. I can’t deny that it hurts deeply to know that so many around me are in pain. I can’t touch, absorb, or transmute this pain because it’s not mine. This hurts because transforming pain into joy is what I do.
So, what do I do now? I have no damn idea! I just know that I need to do something different. Being shut down sucks!
Thankfully there is space today to connect more with Spider and My Ancestors. I’m sure someone has something interesting to say <3
Until next time.. take precious care!
Seeking the silence mentioned in the previous post has been amazing. The more I seek it, the more I hear it. Here is what I’ve noticed over the past few days:
The more I seek that space the more things re-arrange themselves for me to connect with it. Children stop talking. Husbands peacefully leave the apartment. Traffic slows down. It’s wild.
This space sounds different with my left ear than with my right. The left ear sounds/feel likes a portal to some cosmic void. I can feel things stirring, pressing their way into reality. When I focus enough sound becomes a physical sensation. This is new for me. I’m used to voices, impressions, vision and knowing– not physical feeling. My right ear hears the silence of the green–not the cosmic void. Normally I don’t hear things that way. My right ear chills on my head. My left ear does the spiritual lifting.
My challenge for the week: Keep listening! Keep noticing! I’m curious to see if I can find the space where the cosmic void and the Green connect <3
Until next time, Take precious care
Earlier this week, a new Voice popped up. I hear lots of things. Trees, cats, hidden folk, plants… But this voice was new and said the most interesting thing.
The voice told me that there is a way to keep my ears and heart open even when life gets demanding. It said I needed to hear the silence behind the chaos of life. This silence is the organizing principle of life. It is the void from which we all come. If I root myself in that silence I’ll find stability by understanding how things work and being able to better discern what’s coming.
The voice also suggested enjoying the peace between chaotic events. If I seek the peace between events, I will be more rested. Although my energy will be ebb and flow, I will be more harmonious with the land I live on and the flow of my life.
The interesting thing is, that ever since that voice spoke I can hear the silence behind everything. It’s more distinguishable when everyone is sleeping or I’m not agitated. However, I’m noticing that silence is always there– even in the midst of chaos.
I also love the idea of enjoying peace when it comes. I have a habit of being on all the time. Part of it is being a mother to two young boys, but another part is just me. I need to better discern when I can turn off and turn off.
I have a feeling this is a reconnection challenge and that I should really focus on this for the next week. But, we are on the last week of holidays in France <3 I’m going to be a wee lazy and come back to this next week <3
Until next time, take precious care
This week, my challenge is to become more rooted into my essential self….um whatever that is. The trees around me describe it as their treeness. That description makes sense and confuses me at the same time. I’m human. There’s all these things I ascribe to who I am. When I think of Jeannette Lancien, I think sleepy Mother who laughs and cooks a great deal. I think of a loving wife and good friend. There are millions of things I think about until I am gently reminded that those are things I do. They are not who I am. If all those things were to change, I’d still be me–that is my essential self. It’s not what I do. It’s who I be.
I asked how do I root into the essence of who I am? I am told to breathe, be still and smile. Who I am will bubble up to the surface. I must admit that answer sounds much more like my Father than the trees, but let’s see what happens <3.
This week my challenge is to slow down and root/ground into my essential self. Before getting out of bed and before preparing meals, I’ll take a couple of deep breathes into my belly and see what bubbles up. When I can feel myself, I will move from there
Let’s see what comes up <3
Oh yeah about last weeks eating challenge. It wasn’t too terrible, but it wasn’t great either. I have idyllic memories of being twenty something and vegan in the South of France. My memories and the present moment are two different things. Vegan bullshit is now abundant in France. I’m also not just cooking for myself and my husband (who eats just about anything with gratitude) anymore. Sadly, my kids are not into eating only veggies and don’t eat unless I’m eating what they are eating with them. So… eating better..meh. I was able to cut out milk products and limit the gluten. I’m hearing more; which was the goal. I’m overall satisfied but there is always more work to do.
Let’s see how next week goes!
This challenge has been a bit harder than I expected. It’s easy to carry an intention for a day. The real challenge is staying laser focused on my intention through out the week when there is so much to do.
For this week, I’d like to do something more subtle. This week, I want to focus on my feet. My feet keep the rest of my body grounded and connected to Mother Earth. Finding little ways to care for them and ensure that I am engaging them properly feels like a gentle way to deepen my connection with Mother Earth. Not to mention, since my feet are always with me it’s easier to check in with them—even when I am with the boys.
So, for this week, my goal is to ensure that my weight is evenly spread between both feet and that I am engaging them mindfully. I want to continuously feel the flow of energy down into the Earth when I exhale and into my feet when I inhale. My intuition often spreads out around me like a cape, but I can feel things though my feet. It’d be nice to sharpen this skill a bit. I also intend to do something nice for my feet; like a foot bath.
Last week’s focus on yard work was helpful. I trimmed an overgrown tree in the yard and realized that I was very much like that tree. In my own eagerness to find light, I occasionally confuse and stunt my growth. The tree reminded me the importance of letting go what no longer works and being flexible.
I also ended up finding some plants knows for attracting fairies 🙂 Foxglove was just planted yesterday and I hope to get snapdragon in the ground this week.
I’m curious to see what comes up next.
Until next time.. take precious care.
For this week’s challenge, I am going to focus on something simple: yard work.
I really love yard work. It’s a great way to connect with Mother Earth. There is nothing more exciting than offering plants all they need to flourish in harmony. Although yard work can be challenging with a toddler, I’ve had quite a few magic moments. The most important thing seems to be preparation. When I calm, focused and have plan things go well.
So, with the intention of reconnecting to Mother Earth, I will mindfully prepare the yard for fall. I will trim the bushes, herbs and the tree according to their desires and not my own. I will be patient in planting the new snapdragons and foxgloves, so that they can find the best spot in the yard. And I will be careful in how I include the children in this work.
Last week I didn’t get to spend too much time in nature 🙁 But since school is back in, I’m sure I can get some yard work done 😀
Hope all is being good to you